Tryouts and Tests

beberapa hari sebelom modul..
beberapa hari sebelom ujian praktek..
beberapa minggu sebelom UAS..
beberapa minggu sebelom UAN..
beberapa bulan sebelom libur..
beberapa bulan sebelom kelulusan..
beberapa bulan sebelom prom night..
beberapa bulan sebelom kuliah..

MEN!! gue mendadak panik. bentar lagi udah urusannya bukan "SMA mana?" tapi udah "kuliah dimana?" anjir. terus bentar lagi mulai bahas-bahas modul-modul tiap hari. wuoah! terakhir kali kayanya "entar lah, UAN masih 3 taon lagi" lah ini, udah di depan mata. seketika panik sendiri. padahal dulu pas SMP kayanya pas mau modul gue kalem banget. kaga pake deg2an segala. sebenernya rada lega juga sih, pas tau jadwal UAN, gak ada kwn sama sejarah. biasanya itu 2 yang suka bikin gue nervous duluan bahkan pas masih jauh dari ulangannya. tapi pas UASnya justru ada kwn sejarah. mampus banget.

senen, udah mulai modul sekaligus ujian praktek. kenapa pula ujian praktek di campur sama modul? gimana ceritanya gue mau fokus coba kira-kira? terus abis ujian praktek 2 minggu, gak lama UAS, abis itu UAN. kalo udah lewat UAS aja deh, gue sedikit lebih lega. tapi tetep aja itu kwn sejarah gue gimana kabarnyaa? mana gara-gara ni ujian-ujian, nyokap jadi gak kasi gue sering latian. jadi repot bener nentuin jadwal latian. elah buset. stres sendiri ngebayangin 3 bulan kedepan. UAN oh UAN. cepetan tanggal 18 April jam 12 siang deh. udah kelar UAN itu, gue mau langsung merayakan #asek.

Too Late...

I know it's too late..
I know it's useless..
everybody is telling me that I'm strong enough to face this..
alone..

everybody tells me to move on..
everybody cheers me up..
everybody believe that I'm tough..
but I don't..

I'm all alone, here..
pretending like I'm ok..
when I'm actually not..
laughing in front of people, but crying behind them..

I know I made mistakes..
and regret that..
I am terribly sorry..
I miss you and I need you..

there's no word to describe much pain that I feel now..
I just want you to know that I am sorry..
I hope that you might open your heart, someday..
just open it, and I'll come to you..

I am sorry, Ney..

Regretness

Here is the situation..

I dumped a guy, to whom I gave my whole heart..

But then suddenly, I made a mistake..

No, actually 4 mistakes..

But that guy always forgives me..

Now, stupid me..

I made my 5th mistake..

This time that guy wont forgive me..

I regret this..

Even more than before..

But it's too late..

Selfish girl like me can't get him again..

I don't know maybe this is what people call Karma..

I dumped him with all of his kindness..

And so when I realize that I need him..

I lost him already, like maybe forever..

I'm sorry, Ney..

-by: Tessa. 26/01/2013; 7:59; multimedia room-

A Little Too Not Over You - David Archuleta

Oohhhh oh, oh..
It never crossed my mind at all.
It's what I tell myself.
What we had has come and gone.
You're better off with someone else.
It's for the best, I know it is.
But I see you.
Sometimes I try to hide
What I feel inside,
And I turn around.
You're with him now.
I just can't figure it out.

Tell me why you're so hard to forget.
Don't remind me, I'm not over it.
Tell me why I can't seem to face the truth.
I'm just a little too not over you.
Not over you....

Memories, supposed to fade.
What's wrong with my heart?
Shake it off, let it go.
Didn't think it'd be this hard.
Should be strong, movin' on.
But I see you.
Sometimes I try to hide
What I feel inside.
And I turn around,
You're with him now.
I just can't figure it out.

Tell me why you're so hard to forget.
Don't remind me, I'm not over it.
Tell me why I can't seem to face the truth.
I'm just a little too not over you.

Maybe I regret everything I said,
No way to take it all back, yeah...
Now I'm on my own..
How I let you go, I'll never understand.
I'll never understand, yeah, oohh..
Oohhh, oohhh, oohhhh..
Oohhh, ooohhhh, oohhh.

Tell me why you're so hard to forget.
Don't remind me, I'm not over it.
Tell me why I can't seem to face the truth.
I'm just a little too not over you.

Tell me why you're so hard to forget.
Don't remind me, I'm not over it.
Tell me why I can't seem to face the truth.
And I really don't know what to do.
I'm just a little too not over you.
Not over you, oohhh..

Hati Dan Otak

hati bilang iya, otak bilang jangan..

hati bilang lanjut, otak bilang stop..

hati bilang bener, otak bilang salah..

hati bilang baik, otak bilang brengsek..

hati bilang wajar, otak bilang GILA!

hati bilang seneng, otak bilang "gak seharusnya lu seneng"..

otak sama hati gak pernah sejalan..

selalu bertentangan..

tapi ending2nya gue selalu ngikutin hati gue..

yang lagi-lagi, menurut otak gue itu salah..

cape.

maybe...

maybe I'm insane..
maybe I'm out of my mind..
maybe this is stupid..

but I think it's the best way I could ever do..
WE could ever do..

When I Was Your Man - Bruno Mars

Same bed but it feels just a little bit bigger now

Our song on the radio but it don't sound the same

When our friends talk about you all it does is just tear me down

Couse my heart breaks a little when I hear your name

It all just sound like oooooooh

Mmm too young too dumb to realize

That I should've bought you flowers

and held your band

Shoulda gave you all my hours

When I had the chance

Take you to every party

Cause all you wanted to do was dance

Now my baby's dancin'

But she's dancin' with another many needs and my selfish ways

Caused a good, strong woman like you to walk out my life

Now i'll never, never get to clean up the mess I made ooh

And that haunts me every time I close my eyes

It all just sound like ooooooh

Mmm too young too dumb to realize

That I should've brought you flowers

and held your hand

Shoulda gave you all my hours

When I had the chance

Take you to every party

cause all you wanted to do was dance

Now my baby's dancin'

But she's dancin' with another man

Although it hurts

I'll be the first to say that

I was wrong

Oh I know I'll probably much too late

To try and apologize for my mistakes

But I just want you to know

I hope he buys you flowers

I hope he holds your hand

Give you all his hours

when he had the chance

Take you to every party

cause I remember how much you love to dance

Do all the things I should've done

When I was your man

Do all the things I should've done

When I was your man