Hurt

Knowing that you're someone else's, it hurts me.

Remembering about our memories.

How you've been treated me before, and now.

It's like a huge difference.

Well, actually I don't know if it's just me that being sensitive.

But it hurts me tough.

Even when I saw you're texting to someone I don't know, it hurts me.

I don't understand what's wrong with me.

This feeling I can't deny.

This situation I don't understand.

It's just being too complicated for me.

You might just say "let it flow".

And even myself wants to let it flow.

But my heart just can't.

You know, I did try my best not love you.

Just to accept you as my brother.

But see, everytime I try, it makes me sad.

Yes, I try to hide it from you.

You don't have to know that I'm hurt.

I want you to be happy.

But I don't know, do I have to hurt myself to make you happy?

Once they said, "love is when you're happy to see someone that you love is happy".

Well, I don't even know if you're happy with this kind of situation.

I want to read your mind so bad.

So I will had a clue about what I'm supposed to do.

Dear darling, brother, bestfriend.

I'm sorry that I can't deny this feeling.

I can't even control it.

I'm so sorry, if my feeling puts you in troubles.

Just tell me what to do, and I'll try my best to do it.

I'll try.

But I don't know if I can.