maybe...

maybe I'm insane..
maybe I'm out of my mind..
maybe this is stupid..

but I think it's the best way I could ever do..
WE could ever do..

When I Was Your Man - Bruno Mars

Same bed but it feels just a little bit bigger now

Our song on the radio but it don't sound the same

When our friends talk about you all it does is just tear me down

Couse my heart breaks a little when I hear your name

It all just sound like oooooooh

Mmm too young too dumb to realize

That I should've bought you flowers

and held your band

Shoulda gave you all my hours

When I had the chance

Take you to every party

Cause all you wanted to do was dance

Now my baby's dancin'

But she's dancin' with another many needs and my selfish ways

Caused a good, strong woman like you to walk out my life

Now i'll never, never get to clean up the mess I made ooh

And that haunts me every time I close my eyes

It all just sound like ooooooh

Mmm too young too dumb to realize

That I should've brought you flowers

and held your hand

Shoulda gave you all my hours

When I had the chance

Take you to every party

cause all you wanted to do was dance

Now my baby's dancin'

But she's dancin' with another man

Although it hurts

I'll be the first to say that

I was wrong

Oh I know I'll probably much too late

To try and apologize for my mistakes

But I just want you to know

I hope he buys you flowers

I hope he holds your hand

Give you all his hours

when he had the chance

Take you to every party

cause I remember how much you love to dance

Do all the things I should've done

When I was your man

Do all the things I should've done

When I was your man

Painful Love

I love you

you know that, exactly

it hurts when you're with her, indeed

it hurts when you start to talk about her

it hurts when you start to "compare"

it hurts when you're seems so proud of her

it hurts when i see you text her

it hurts when i see your display picture with her

it hurts when you put her name on your status

it hurts when i know you spend your time and your family's holiday with her

it hurts when i realize that you both were super close

it hurts when i see your eyes while saying her name

i don't know,

but it hurts me more when you start to ignore me...

it hurts me the worst

you might don't understand how it feels

you never felt this kind of pain, huh?

you never really understood how i feel about you

you never really cared for me

you never really thought that i existed

i'm nothing to you, right?

just a girl, hip hop dancer that dances with you

just a little girl that know nothing about love

just a little girl that can't truly accept the truth

that you love her so much

yeah i think i don't really understand what love is

since i feel that this love is this painful,

when i used to think love supposed to be something beautiful

o2 Trip To Pangandaran

tanggal 26-30 kemaren, gue sama anak-anak o2 pergi ke pangandaran buat ngabisin liburan natal taon baru. tanggal 25 malem, gue sama Arthur udah standby di o2 buat nginep. tapi karena faktor "terlalu-semangat" jadinya kita gak bisa tidur. awalnya gue sama artur berniat buat begadang, tapi karena takut kecapean, jadinya tidur. gue tidur di kamar tamu, Arthur tidur di sofa di lantai 2. Tapi gue gak bisa tidur walaupun udah di paksain, akhirnya jam 3an, gue keluar. tiba-tiba yang tidur di sofa lantai 2 bukan artur, berubah jadi kak lutfi. terus gue ke bawah, artur ternyata tidur di ruang tamu, dan kayaknya pules banget. abis gue bangunin, gak lama angie dateng, terus ka monce. setelah kita siap, kak adit, kak wita sama mbak atun siap, kita pun berangkat dari o2 jam setengah 5an. 

26 Desember
singkat cerita, kita sampe di curug cilember jam 7an. main-main disana sampe jam 8an. itu dingin maksimal, tapi ka lutfi, ka adit sama artur berenang-berenang. gue cuma cemplung-cemplung kaki aja. abis dari curug, kita ke taman safari. disana seharian penuh sampe malem. gue main histeria gara-gara dipaksa anak2, alhasil gue mewek saking takutnya. tapi kata mereka itu gak ada apa-apanya dibandingin sama histeria yang di dufan. gila banget! abis itu ke daerah puncak pass, gak tau sih namanya apa. pokoknya yang ada mesjid gede, buat nungguin ka bogel nyusul. selama nunggu itu, kita tidur dan kak bogel sampe sana jam 11an. abis itu kita langsung jalan ke Ciamis, rumah neneknya ka adit.

27 Desember
kita sampe di Ciamis jam 8an, dan langsung pada tidur karena belom puas tidurnya. sorenya kita mancing, dan gue dapet ikan yang GEDE!! buat pergi ke empang tempat mancingnya itu, kita mesti lewatin sawah, pas perginya sih kaki gue gak kotor-kotor amat soalnya gak ujan. nah pas baliknya ujan, entah sawah siapa aja dan berapa sawah yang udah gue rusakin. tapi seru banget gokil. sampe rumah neneknya ka adit, kita bersihin ikan, mandi, terus makan. gue gak ikutan bersihin ikan gara-gara jijik maksimal.

28 Desember
kita jam 1 siang udah pergi ke pangandaran. tepatnya di Batu Karas sih. disana nginepnya di penginapan gitu. sampe di Batu Karas sekitar jam 8 malem, kita makan mandi terus pada tidur. tapi gue, angie, ka lutfi, ka bogel, sama ka monce main kartu sampe jam 1an. abis selesai main kartu tidurlah kita. 

29 Desember
pagi jam 8an, kita pergi ke tempat body raftingnya, di green canyon. kalo orang-orang tau rafting kan pake perahu, ini gak pake. jadi kita cuma dipakein life fest sama segala keperluan "berenang". jadi intinya kita kaya berenang di kali dengan arus yang lumayan deres dan banyak batu-batuan. sekitar jam 11an kita mulai rafting, segala banyak rintangn batu-batukita lewatin. manjat batu, ada goa, ada air terjun kecil yang kece banget airnya seger banget. selesai rafting sekitar jam setengah 6an. padahal kata ka wita, biasanya rafting cuma 4 jam. gak sadar ternyata 6 setengah jam sore. wow! tapi seru banget, bener-bener kece. pengen maen kesana lagi. selesai rafting kita makan, terus pulang dan mandi. abis itu kita ngobrol-ngobrol sampe malem. dan pas tidur pules banget gara-gara kecapean.

30 Desember
pagi, bangun udah siap-siap mau pulang. tapi kita jalan dari Batu Karas jam 3an siang, gara-gara sempet main water sport dulu di Batu Karas Beach. di perjalanangue kerjaannya cuma tidur doang. kita sampe o2 jam 3an subuh. terus gue pulang dan sampe rumah jam 4an. langsung tidur.

seru banget, pulang dari Pangandaran jadi berasa lebih akrab sama anak-anak. taon depan harus ada lagi trip begini, dan gue harus ikut!!

Happy 20th Birthday, Rayon

15.12.2012

hari ini, salah satu temen baik gue ulang taon. gue udah ngerencanain ultah dia sekitar dari 3 bulan, tapi skip 2 bulan gara2 sibuk ngurusin o-zone, jadinya sebulan terakhir baru deh gue mulai rempong nyiapin ultah dia. dari bikin video anak satu-satu, sampe mikirin ngerjainnya mau cara gimana. sampe akhirnya sampelah, hari ini dia ultah. pagi-pagi, gue udah ngucapin duluan, dengan harapan dy gak curiga. sampe ketemu di o2 pun dy masih gak curiga sama sekali. pas kak adit udah selesai ngajar kelas angie. barulah kita iket rayon di tiang, terus kita guyur dengan segala macem bahan masakan yang najis. terus kita diemin dia di depan situ. dengan ada tulisan "HOI! HARI INI AKU ULANG TAHUN KE 20 LOH!!" abis itu tiup lilin, dan gue cabut pergi sama anak-anak ke puri, abis dari puri, ke mall alsut, terus rayon nyusul di mall alsut :D and here's some of the photos! :D

O-Zone; Dance Adventure vol.2

H-1; 8 Desember 2012
hari ini, pulang sekolah gue sama Angie dijemput sama ci Nara, ci Tia, Mella, Yaga, Via di sekolah buat siap-siap GR buat scene inti di Titan Center, ada ninja merah, ninja item, sama ninja ungu + Danzel Maxi + crew properti. pulang sekolah jam setengah 1, langsung berangkat ke Titan. sampe Titan kita langsung mulai GR, awalnya rada semangat, gara-gara tempat baru. tapi lama kelamaan, mulai lemes nya kumat, terus gue sempet ketiduran beberapa lama di sofa. Rayon pun sempet nyaris pingsan kecapean. kayaknya hari ini orang-orang udah gak ada wujudnya, alias pada kecapean. selesai GR, kita masih sempet angkat-angkat barang dll sampe kuranglebih jam 10, gue pulang sama Bogel. pas belom keluar dari Bintaro, gue udah trying my best to stay awake. tp taunya, gue baru merem sebentar, tiba-tiba udah sampe di depan o2. singkat cerita sampe rumah gue langsung beres-beres koper terus tidur ASAP.

9 Desember 2012
IT'S THE DAY!! pagi-pagi jam 5.15, gue udah bangun. langsung mandi, siap-siap dan cao ke o2. dengan mata yang bengep gue langsung masuk-masukin barang ke mobil ka adit. terus gue langsung ke Titan buat GR lagi. sampe di Titan, bahkan sampe udah setengah latian, Rayon belom dateng, belom bangun lebih tepatnya. panik maksimal, akhirnya gue nekat telp ke rumahnya. untung di angkat, dan gak lama nongollah dia. GR mulai jam 8, sampe jam 2 siang. setelah selesai GR, kita semua makan di dinning room. tapi gue gak bisa makan gara-gara nervous maksimal. jadi gue cuma makan setengah, terus balik ke backstage buat make-up dll.

ternyata di backstage lantai 2, khusus buat ninja-ninja. jadi luas banget tempatnya. sedangkan yang lain cuma di taro di 1 ruangan yang lumayan gede juga tapi gak ada meja rias + WC nya. selesai make-up dan setelah acara di mulai jam 5.30, gue semakin menjadi-jadi mulesnya. ganti-ganti baju bolak balik ngos-ngosan. tapi gak berasa, tiba-tiba udah selesai acara dan pembacaan awarding. abis itu kita makan malem lagi, dan gue pulang. padahal anak-anak lain masih ada yang beresin properti, tapi gue udah gak kuat lagi, udah lemes maksimal, jadi gue pulang, mandi langsung tidur. untung senen nya libur, kalo enggak, gue pasti bolos :D

gak percaya banget O-Zone udah selesai. baru beberapa hari dari O-Zone, gue udah kangen banget sama hectic nya persiapan O-Zone, sama cape-cape nya, sama kumpul-kumpul sama anak-anak. biasanya kumpul dari siang sampe tengah malem terus setiap hari, ini udah beberapa hari sama sekali gak ketemu. it's like something is missing. puas banget sih sama acara O-Zone, prosesnya berat memang, bikin cape memang, hectic memang, tapi I had so much fun, dan gue belajar banyak banget dari persiapan O-Zone ini :D

thanks to o2, and happy 2nd anniversary!!

So Sick - NeYo

Mmm mmm, yeah

Doo doo, doo doo doo, doo doo doo

Oh yeah

Gotta change my answering machine

Now thath I'm alone

'Cuz right now it says that we

Can't come to the phone

And I know it makes no sense

'Cuz you walked out the door

But it's the only way I hear your voice anymore

(It's ridiculous)

It's been months

And for some reason I just

(Can't get over us)

And I'm stronger than this, yeah

(Enough is enough)

No more walkin' round

With my head down

(Yeah)

I'm so over being blue

Cryin' over you

And I'm so sick of love songs

So tired of tears

So done with wishing

You were still here

Said I'm so sick of love songs

So sad and slow

So why can't I turn off the radio?

Gotta fix that calendar I have

That's marked July 15th

Because since there's no more you

There's no more anniversary

I'm s fed up with my thoughts of you

And your memory

And how every song reminds me

Of what used to be

That's the reason I'm so sick of love songs

So tired of tears

So done with wishing

You were still here

Said I'm so sick of love songs

So sad and slow

So why can't I turn off the radio?

(Leave me alone)

Leave me alone

(Stupid love songs)

Don't make me think about her smile

Or having my first child

I'm letting go

Turning off the radio

'Cuz I'm so sick of love song

So tired of tears

So done with wishing

You were still here

Said I'm so sick of love songs

So sad and slow

Why can't I turn off the radio?

(Why can't I turn off the radio?)

And I'm so sick of love song

So tired of tears

So done with wishin'

You were still here

Said I'm so sick of love songs

So sad and slow

So why can't I turn off the radio?

(Why can't I turn off the radio?) 

Why can't I turn off the radio?